phoebe’s blog

This QOTD has passed, though... still I want to show off :
These are the ones I have in my house

And this one I have on my desk in the office :

What fictional character do you relate to most and why?

Pippilangstrump

Pippi Langstrump, or in English, Pippi Longstocking, no doubt, has many resemblances with me. She's strong, awkward looking, always has her own way of doing things, and she stays in her childhood.

I also consider myself as some kind of a clown, something that Pippi sometimes takes role of. To make people cheer, or laugh, or smile is a personal accomplishment to me. 

However Pippi is much more stronger character than me. She can never be weak, while half of the time I act as a drama queen.Hope I can be as strong as her one day!

I remember when you first came here I felt a little burdened because you'll be under my "guidance" throughout life in Jakarta. But turned out you taught me a lot of things in the end - including how to be a good listener and how to eat the same meal everyday for 3 months straight..

Larsandvivi

It is not my lack of diligence that prevented me from updating my blog on vox. God knows how I love vox more than my other blogs :)

Funny things happen at work. My boss seems to have a crush on a goverment official who was one of the speakers of our workshop a while ago. I thought it was just a joke when she claimed to have witness the most handsome guy she's ever seen, but after several months of still bringing up the old same story, I began to take her more seriously. Maybe she really likes him. If yes, then it's a really bad luck, since he's married with who-knows how many kids :)

Satryo

But y'know, these things are just the things that got me keep thinking. Do soulmates come in literally any place ? Such as in the heart of a geeky woman in the form of my boss and in the heart of a reputable government official as the man?

Life always confuses me.

Book: What book are you most ashamed you haven't read?
Submitted by Byrne.

Pramoedya Toer's Buru Quartet :

• Bumi Manusia (This Earth of Mankind) (1980)
• Anak Semua Bangsa (Child of All Nations) (1980)
• Jejak Langkah (Footsteps) (1985)
• Rumah Kaca (House of Glass) (1988)

Pa_toer_quartetburu

I have been longing for ages to read these masterpieces, and even my 'bule' colleague has read them... so I am very embarassed as an Indonesian that I haven't read a page from the books.

And I also started to read some books, and left them unfinished. And unlike some people, I don't like to jump to the last page of the book just to see the end - I'd rather be left hanging in the middle of the plot, not knowing what will happen in the end. Dunno, if this is good or bad :))

It's certain that I will be jobless in less than two months. What is more pathetic, the boss mentioned that neither our unit nor the unit that i used to work for have money to pay for the extension of my contract. So, here we are, being layed in front of my face, like it's a regular matter, though it could mean something to someone : me.

I thought about being jobless many many time before. Of course, being one with a "special service agreement" means no security of my future. when the contract's up, you'll be on hanging on the thread, searching for another job. I guess I must be that incompetent, that nobody is going to claim me, once I've finished my contract here. It's sad, because these last months I've been working very hard and I think I've finally produced decent work, better than in my first year.

What I'm trying to say here is : suddenly becoming jobless is such a nightmare for me, since I will be at home the whole time. I can't stand that! I've been in that condition, and not sure if I'm ready to be home again. First I thought that I will be occupied with Z's search for elementary school, the transition from kindergarten to elementary,  but as it  bursted out last night in the conversation with my dad, it's not for another year! So I've been building my hopes on nothing.

Now I'm thinking, should I take the offer of the last interview I had, for about half my current salary, but I think more security and insurance (I hope?). God, I need to find another job, fast!!!

there are several types of dummies :

- the ones who don't know what they don't know, or the ignorant type

- the ones who know what they don't know but don't know how to do it, the lazy type

- the ones who thought they know but don't know how to do it, the "sok tau" type

(i'm afraid i'm torn between (b) and (c) )